From 3 to 5!

Just sitting here in the hospital realizing that tomorrow we are scheduled to go home (both Paula and Isaac are sacked out).  3 months ago we were a family of 3, and tomorrow we go back to our home as a family of 5!  God...what can I say?  Your plan is always better than mine, and it makes me wonder why I try so hard to keep my plan instead of submitting to yours.  11 months ago, you said we would have a son, then on December 30th we received a referral of a little 4 month old boy.  I doubted you because he was so far away and I worried because so many things could go wrong.  A month or so later you showed us that we were pregnant.  I doubted you because of the past, and I worried because, yes, so many things could go wrong!  On July 11th, Elijah was in my arms forever, and you proved to me that so many things can go right.  But, still I doubted you and worried.  I tried to use my own strength.  Paula was admitted into the hospital with Shigella for four days in July and I worried because so many things could go wrong.  You pulled us through.  Yesterday we came to the hospital about 6:15am and I doubted you, and I worried because so many things could go wrong.  At 3:00pm yesterday when Isaac was born, you showed me that so many things can go right!!  So I sit here now and my mind comes up with all the things that could go wrong.  Help me remember that you are beside me (and leading me).  You are my rock.  Help me to lean on you.  Jesus open my eyes, show me all the things that can go right and show me how powerful you are!

Psalm 119:18

New Living Translation (NLT)

 ¹⁸ Open my eyes to see
      the wonderful truths in your instructions.